College am I right? Lots of parties, friends, relationships, just CRAAAAAZY stuff!!
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im so sick of this.
The College experience! As you probably know I've been through it last year, poor temperature regulations, loud kids, screwed up computers, and all those other things… But well, unfortunately college isn't just one year, if it was I would be so much more happier, and unemployed. But happier!!!
But nope, welcome to the magical second year of college!! Where... I can’t really talk a lot about it since it started the week I'm writing this.
First of all, compared to last year, my schedule just got like COMPLETELY messed up. Dani from March 2025, you thought waking up at 8 or 9 am was bad?? TRY HAVING TO WAKE UP AT 6AM…. JUST SO YOU CAN STILL ARRIVE LATE TO CLASS.
I mean, other than that everything looks equally stressful! Before starting I just stared at my classes thinking, “Hmmm… i’ll probably enjoy this audiovisual thing, final digital art oooooh!” Well, ummm,, how can i say this,, that was REAL LIFE CLICKBAIT!!!! FINAL DIGITAL ART ISN’T DRAWING DIGITALLY, IN FACT THE TEACHER SAID THAT WHAT WE’RE LEARNING IS FOR AFTER THE CREATIVE PART. And audiovisual, I thought this might be cool! It’s like video editing and recording, I’m gonna be able to finally do an AWESOME project!
Oh boy how I was wrong.
Yeah I arrive late to the 8 am class, the whole room filled with another class at the same time as mine, having to go back and grab a chair from another classroom just to come back and hear the teacher talking about a future work where I have to INTERVIEW RANDOM PEOPLE NEAR THE SCHOOL PREMISES.
Why can’t I just make a documentary talking in-depth about the development and history of Toby Fox??
Oh yeah and the teacher kinda looks like Ben Shapiro and Charlie Charlie Kirky… I don’t know how to feel about that.
it's the 5th of January now and I don't really care this much anymore, the interview thing went pretty well except for the fact that my teacher just ignored my submission! so I got a 0 in a pretty well edited video! Okay i actually i DO care this much, this teacher fucking SUCKS and he clearly has something agaisnt me.
Maybe it’s cuz I'm kinda laid back but can still deliver, maybe it's cuz im transgender. Yeah maybe it’s because i miss classes sometimes because getting up from bed is hard when you’re DEPRESSED, or maybe because I tried turning it in thirty minutes late, IDK BUT HE HATES ME.
Well college is being extremely overwhelming to me, waking up at 6am DOES suck, but it doesn’t suck as much if you can text with someone you love during the entire trip! Or thinking about WEDNESDAY!!! But now all the work we gotta do… is just boring, and awful, and when I end up doing them perfectly my GRADES SUCK EVEN THO I DID EXACTLY WHAT THEY WANTED????
And then sitting inside the classroom, sleep deprived, hearing my teacher explain something you don't understand so QUICKLY, while you had to spend a couple minutes re-installing inDesign on my laptop because without that you literally couldn't do ANYTHING. Every second that I spend here feels like the universe punishing me, my mind leaves my body as my fingers type whatever goes through my mind.
Honestly, I just wanna work on my game, work on my art, work on my relationships and not be chained in this awful college course that’s honestly NOT that bad but it’s killing me inside.
also look at this shit.
1.95 out of 20. My jaw DROPPED when i saw this, knowing i wrote a full report explaining my photo sequence, respecting everything my teacher asked. GUH.............
Genuinely, the only thing that’s bringing me happiness in this place is being with the few people that I love and that actually care for me, and Wednesday. FUCK i gotta wait two days for Wednesday.